Childhood

I come from a mixed marriage. My mum was a Catholic and my dad a two-faced lying bastard and scum of the earth.
A selfish man who couldnt keep his hands off anything in a skirt. I worshipped him as a kid but hated him as a adult.

My ambition was to be the opposite of him. I wanted to be a family man, a great dad and a faithful husband.

I am proud to say I was all three - but such is life I still lost my wife - I didnt only lose my wife but also my best friend and soul-mate.

But please dont expect this book to be a `whitewash` of me or a `character assassination` of my ex-wife

I can assure it is neither - its just a 100% honest account of my life before, with and then without Julie.

The fact is I was faithful throughout our 15-year marriage - but it aint that hard being faithful when you are genuinely in love with a person and believe in your wedding vows.

That doesnt make me a Angel and I dont want to be thought of as some kind of Saint cos I sure aint either.

The fact is it`s pretty easy to be faithful when your wife looks like a Page 3 girl and gets better-looking every year.

My pin-ups were Britt Ekland, Susan George, Suzanne Mitzi, Joanne Guest and are Kate Moss, Amanda Holden, Patsy Kensit, Ola Jordan.

And I fancied Julie and found her more sexy then the lot of them put together.

If praising her after all these years makes me sound like a wimp - so be it. If still paying her compliments after all she`s done to destroy me - makes me sound like some wanker in a Mills and Boon novel - so what?

I can live with that.

The fact is it would be a waste of time writing a autobiography if you was too scared to tell the truth.

I aint scared to bare my soul and reveal my true feelings - the only condition I have set myself is to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

Every anecdote I tell, every incident I reveal will be the Gospel truth. I will admit to once being a teenage tearaway, a criminal and a speedfreak.

I will confess to my stress-related problems in the `bedroom department` in 2004 that drove my wife into the arms and bed of richard grimson. I have been told there were others - but I only know about flemming and tibbs.

I will not deny my past and I wish others would have the decency to admit there`s.









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