THE STONE ROSES are without doubt one of the best British bands of all-time. They are right up there with The Sex Pistols, The Clash, The Jam and Oasis and I knew that the first time I heard them.
I will never forget the afternoon I got a phone call from Ian Brown at the Sounds office in Covent Garden.
We`d never met but got on like a house on fire. The Roses singer phoned because he liked some of the stuff I`d written in the magazine.
He said there was a present in the post and that I`d like it. Like it - I fucking loved it. The gift was a dozen Stone Roses demo tapes and they blew me away.
As luck would have it the morning I got the tapes a band I was meant to review that night cancelled the gig.
I phoned Ian and we agreed to meet up the next day. When I arrived in Manchester I was met at the station by Ian and the rest of the band.
They had attitude and charisma as well as talent. We headed for the pub and three hours later we were sitting in a recording studio listening to various demo tracks.
I loved everything about them and thank god they seemed to like me. Pete and Andy were a nice couple of blokes, John was quite and a bit of a thinker, but Ian and Reni were like kindred spirits.
They were both party animals and shared my love of fast drugs.
We went clubbing and up I ended up staying for three days. I returned a week later with my photographer and sidekick Tony Mottram.
I did the first ever Stone Roses interview and sung their praises in the pages of Sounds magazine.
And weeks later I also wrote the first live review.
When Ian and the boys came to London they stayed at my place and played clubs like Dingwalls and the world famous Marquee Club.
It was a great period in my life and certainly my greatest rock and roll adventure. We would go to VIP parties all over London and mingle with celebs.
It was sex and drugs and rock and roll.
One night I blagged all of us us into a swish VIP party at The Roof Garden in Kensington High Street.
The club was wall-to-wall with famous faces.
Ian got chatted-up by Leee John of Imagination, the Roses were snapped with Spandau Ballet and about 100 people watched me have sex.
I was a bit of a `bird bandit` in those days and the girls at the record companies would jokingly call me a "tart".
I went out to the roof garden with some girl and didnt realise we were `performing` in front of a sort of two-way mirror.
The petition that separated the club from the garden was like ambulance glass - you could see out but not in...
At the time I was also writing a Gossip Column for Sounds and The Stone Roses were getting more name checks then any other bands.
I linked Ian with Angie Bowie and wrote that the band would be playing at The Sir John Franklin pub in East London.
And Thames TV sent a reporter - but in the end there was no gig - though the Roses did have a few pints at the bar and Ian joined me on stage for a rowdy rendition of "Bubbles".
At the time the Blackwall Tunnel boozer was `infamous` for being a lunch-time strippers pub...and its `funny` to think...that two years later...the then Julie Taylor - who on 23rd November 1990 would became Mrs JULIE JOHNSON at Brentwood Registery Office and now known as Julie Taylor Johnson...was performing at The Sir John Franklin as a sexy stripper...what a small world!
My ex-wife (the blonde in the picture) hates people knowing about her past as a PUB STRIPPER and that between 1992-2004 she starred in over THIRTY porn movies...but surely JULIE must be proud to know she once performed on the same stage as STONE ROSES legend Ian Brown.
The only difference he sung - she took all her clothes off - but as they say "That`s Showbiz".
If it werent for her x-rated performances captured in porn movies like `BASILDON BABE` and `The Shotgate Slut`...it would be hard to imagine that the 45-year-old bottle blonde now working at Sainsburys East Mayne Basildon is the same JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...once described by her fans as the Essex version of Linda Lovelace.
Julie still looks fantstic for her age (at least 10/12 years younger) - and more then good enough for one more movie - so when I say "hard to imagine" - I`m not having a `pop` at her or being nasty - what I mean is...when your doing your weekly shop at a Sainsburys Supermarket in Basildon you dont expect to come `face to face` with a former porn star.
At the time the Blackwall Tunnel boozer was `infamous` for being a lunch-time strippers pub...and its `funny` to think...that two years later...the then Julie Taylor - who on 23rd November 1990 would became Mrs JULIE JOHNSON at Brentwood Registery Office and now known as Julie Taylor Johnson...was performing at The Sir John Franklin as a sexy stripper...what a small world!
My ex-wife (the blonde in the picture) hates people knowing about her past as a PUB STRIPPER and that between 1992-2004 she starred in over THIRTY porn movies...but surely JULIE must be proud to know she once performed on the same stage as STONE ROSES legend Ian Brown.
The only difference he sung - she took all her clothes off - but as they say "That`s Showbiz".
If it werent for her x-rated performances captured in porn movies like `BASILDON BABE` and `The Shotgate Slut`...it would be hard to imagine that the 45-year-old bottle blonde now working at Sainsburys East Mayne Basildon is the same JULIE TAYLOR JOHNSON...once described by her fans as the Essex version of Linda Lovelace.
Julie still looks fantstic for her age (at least 10/12 years younger) - and more then good enough for one more movie - so when I say "hard to imagine" - I`m not having a `pop` at her or being nasty - what I mean is...when your doing your weekly shop at a Sainsburys Supermarket in Basildon you dont expect to come `face to face` with a former porn star.
One night Ian and Reni did get up on stage with Punk Legend Frankie Flame at The Cockney Pride boozer in Leicester Square.
They also came close to being produced by old mate and Jam guitarist Bruce Foxton.
The Roses were not signed at the time but I was doing my very best to get them a record contract.
I took them to every major label in London but they all turned them down.
A great mate of mine was Hughie Gadson, a music biz legend who discovered Wham...managed EMF...and now co-manages Madness.
Now Hughie was a bloke I always looked up to and I did my best to get him to sign The Stone Roses.
But for some reason he said "no" and instead signed a bunch of losers called Ring Of Roses.
I was `gutted` when Hughie wouldnt sign THE STONE ROSES...as he was one of the `coolest blokes` I`ve ever met in my life.
Hughie had the charisma of Celeb gangster Dave Courtney and was a `party animal` second to none.
He was West End meets East End...a Public schoolboy - but NOT posh...Hu had been adopted as a baby...and his real dad must of been a East Ender...as he was a combination of upper class and Cockney charm.
He was educated, intelligent but at the same time very street-wise.
We were for a time like Bowie and Bolan...Rod and Ronnie Wood...Mick and Keef. We shared great times...women...drugs...and threw ourselves into the Rock and Roll lifestyle.
He was the leader with all the contacts and I happily followed...we shared everything...drugs...women...clothes and a mutual obsession with DAVID DOWIE.
Hughie was like the big brother I never had...we were best mates and nothing could come between us...I was `shagging` Rock Photographer Erica Echenberg...so Hughie bedded her...and to prove it took a naked picture of her sleeping.
He was seeing a blonde - a teenage Nanny from Malawi - from memory a Monica/Maureen Zonke - or something like that - so I shagged her behind his back - not literally LOL - and confessed a couple days later - and like me with Erica - he just laughed.
That is how close we were...he introduced me to a older woman called Niki Williams - she had a flat in Kensington - a 14-year-old daughter and a Au Pair - I was so impressed that I became `hooked` on her for a while.
It was a great 18 months/2 years - and everyone we met seemed to love CHARLIE - I had now fallen `out of love` with Speed and had moved onto Coke.
Looking back its a good job Hughie didnt sign The Stone Roses - as I`m sure the drugs would have killed us both.
Hughie had a flat in Paddington - the same block as Boy George and Marilyn. I was living my dream of fast drugs, meeting models and going to parties.
I loved going to Stringfellows, the Hippodrome and places like that...at one time I even blagged the job of Press Officer for The Video Cafe...a nightclub next to The London Palladium.
I was never out of the VIP bar or the gents. (snorting with Hughie - wannabess and celebs and having sex with various stunners - not kidding...one night I had a `encounter` with a Miss World contestant from Italy...NOT the winner - but she looked like Suzanna Hoffs from The Bangles - as I recall it did literally all `end in tears`).
She was proof that DRUGS can `mess with your head` - what was I doing with a black-haired girl?
My love of Cocaine saw me lose 2 stone in weight and friends like Pat Stead, Joanna Burns, Patsy Johnson were worried about me.
Now I said Hughie was `smart` ...when the partying got out of hand...he went off to Turkey for a long holiday - with Dan Higson - another mate and the brother of Comic Charlie Higson.
Danny paid for his holiday by selling a kiss and tell story to the News of The World about his affair with Bucks Fizz singer Jay Aston.
I will tell more about my adventures with Hughie G and Danny Boy in other chapters.
But for now back to Hughie...he was at my Wedding - turned up late...wearing black velvet shoes and matching eyeliner...still looking like a sort of Rock Star.
He`d only been there for about 10 minutes when he looked at me...raised his eyes and touched his nose...it was like the old days as we headed off to the Gents for a snort.
I`d been clean for about 6 months - but couldnt say "no" - but did restrict myself to just 2 lines.
I remember Hughie dancing with JULIE and saying "very nice"...but no way would I have shared her with my `Glimmer Twin`...top bloke and all that - but JULIE was "the love of my life".
The fact is - the honest truth is - I think I only took drugs on 3 other occassions during my marraige - I promised Julie I would give up - just like she promised to be faithful LOL.
The fact is Julie found it harder to give up SEX then I did drugs...In September 2004...I lost my job at the NOTW and had `money worries`...which I never told her about (wish I had now).
JULIE mistook my `suffering` with `bedroom stress` (I kept it private) as I didnt want her to know or worry...but with hindsight `it was a mistake`...as it meant she believed (wrongly) that I had gone off her.
She would at 22 Bridge Road - walk around the bedroom naked - saying "Not bad for a mum of three" and "I`ve still got it".
THE TRUTH is she still did have it - she looked great - but she didnt have any patience - just like she never had a conscience.
As I told both the boys - the best way I could - without being crude - or deliberately disrespectful to their former mum.
I said "She always had a strong need for Sex - it was like an addiction with her - and in September 2004 when I couldnt give her what she wanted...she got it from ian fleming and the pervert richard grimson - and I think - but cant prove peter tibbs junior"
Both boys know that she sacrificed THEM for her own selfish sexual pleasure - as I`ve told Sam and Adam she thought more of `shagging grimson and all the others then she did of you`...SAD BUT TRUE.
But I didnt have to tell them that - they already knew - as ADAM told both SAM and me how he caught Julie and grimson in the lounge of 22 Bridge Road Shotgate Wickford.
It was 3pm on a Saturday afternoon and without going into all the graphic details - which appear in THE PUNK POET if you want to read them - ADAM walked in on his mum `half-naked` and having sex with her perverted boyfriend.
So as well as not having a conscience - Julie is also "guilty" of emotional abuse - as a Nine-year-old child should not see his mum behaving like that...that shocking image...which he reported to Sam and me...will remain with him for the rest of his life.
As will the fact that Julie Johnson allowed her boyfriend to violently threaten and verbally sexually abuse her children.
Julie not only condoned his vile behaviour - she covered it up - she supported grimson 100% (as did her parents).
She refused to protect her children by reporting the former pimp and self-confessed child abuser to the police.
And for-the-record...just as Julie ADMITTED at Southend County Court in March 2006 to starring in PORNOGRAPHIC movies...at the Divorce Hearing she CONFIRMED her affair with former pimp Richard Grimson of 40 Hyde Way Wickford Essex.
The fact is because of her `selfish behaviour` Sam and Adam lost out on proper Birthdays, Xmas celebrations and family gatherings because JULIE was a `sex addict`...harsh but true - she believed it was more important to have sex with other men then to be loyal to her family.
Proof of both her sexual appetite and self-obsessed behaviour - is that less then 6 weeks after my `problem/illness` ...rather then wait for me to get `better`...she was jumping into bed with both grimson and fleming.
Julie Johnson - aka Julie Taylor Johnson...between October 2004 and June 2005 became a serial adulterer - as I remind both boys - and they agree - if it wasnt for her selfish behaviour and craving for sex - at special family times like Christmas - the house would of been full of their mates and girlfriends...with JULIE hosting and all of us having a laugh.
We would still be a PROPER family...if it wasnt for Julie falling `under the evil spell` of grimson and prevost.
The truth is because Julie put the advice of dog ugly ginger slag sally prevost before her family - and her lust for ian flemming and richard grimson before her children...she has since 2005 missed out on both boys birthday parties...Xmas celebrations and meeting their girlfriends.
Now when their mates or girls stay over - it`s me who makes them breakfast - and it should of been Julie... but none of the above will ever concern her - because the truth is JULIE JOHNSON has no conscience.
Julie Johnson revels in the fact that men `fall at her feet` - she loves the attention...but doesnt realise how men think - they will say `anything` to sweet-talk her into bed - just like grimson, flemming, tibbs and the fat boy bullshitter.
Since 2005 Sam has seen her with eight or nine...including the fat bald ugly Gary...the `Face` from Canning Town...LOL...as he described himself to a gang of teenagers outside Wickford Tesco - adding "I`m best mates with Dave Courtney"...well...that`s not what they say in Stanford-Le-Hope/Fobbing...or Canning Town where the `proper people` have NEVER heard of the self-styled East End hardman.
But men - and remember I am one - will say ANYTHING to get a woman into bed - both grimson and flemming told Julie they would leave there wives for her...but fleming went back to his wife claiming she was suffering with a serious illness.
True pervert grimson did leave common-law wife Emma - (if you saw her you`d know why - as we are talking downmarket Waynetta Slob) but after a few months he moved out of the `love nest` they shared at 10 Carswell Gardens, The Wick, Wickford and moved back in with the `plain jane and mentally challenged` emma at 40 Hyde Way Wickford.
All grimson got from his affair with Julie - apart from the sex...was a present from his common-law wife who revealed he wasnt the father of their eldest child - HA HA...a visit from South London gangsters - where he cried, squeeled like a pig - and called the police LOL.
What did Julie get?
Well Grimson gave her a STD for Christmas...made her pregnant...but she didnt keep it...so sadly there was to be no `happy ending` for the former porn star and the child abusing pimp.
But I was NOT "entirely blameless"...
I was "guilty" of losing my job and briefly my interest in Julie - physically/sexually...(I still kissed and cuddled her all the time...said nice things) - because I NEVER stopped loving her - but with Julie it had to be sex and plenty of it - to prove you still fancied her.
I am still haunted by what occured in Sept/Oct 2004 (I should of tried Viagra LOL) because I have a conscience - so I suffer for my actions - and punish myself on a daily basis.
But JULIE JOHNSON has never had a conscience - so none of the above affects her - with me it was my children first, second and third.
Whereas with Julie - it was always JULIE, Julie, Julie - and where can I get a man to satisfy my needs - I am not knocking her for that - because as with drinking, gambling, drugs - SEX can be an addiction...or the constant need for it a iillness.
The fact is I was also "guilty" of refusing to have the `snip`...Julie was always on at me to have it done...she hated the pill as it made her put on weight.
I remember throughout 2003 and 2004 that she would go `on and on` about it...once even contacting the `snip Clinic` in Billericay...but I never got further then the Car Park...as I`ve always hated hospitals and anything to do with operations.
Julie was - and for all I know still is a `Sex Addict` - but I do `worry` - I genuinely do worry about her - what is she going to do when her looks fade?
She still is a sort of `stunner` - but one day she will wake up and look her age...it happens to us all...we aint all Kate Moss.
Without being rude I did see her in October - and she isnt what she was - but who is - LOL ? Julie is still `attractive` and not many men would kick her out of bed...not many do.
But she looked more Lisa Maxwell from `Loose Women` than Patsy Kensit...Julie has gone from being `girlfriend/partner material` to `one-night-stand`...though I`d still love a `quickie` or a long weekend away with her LOL.
So I do `worry` about her (15 years was a long time) - as I know how men think - as I stated in The Punk Poet - One Sunday lunchtime I was in The Bowers and Pitsea Social Club where three blokes were talking about her...and what I heard wasnt very nice or flattering.
I didnt know if they were doing it to wind me up - to get a reaction - or even if they knew me - but one of them was boasting how he`d had `Julie` ...described as the `blonde from work`...and lets just say the remarks would not of impressed her.
I looked at him and thought - "scumbag"...your thinning on top and you play Darts...a few years back Julie wouldnt of looked twice at a scruffy ugly bastard like him...but its a fact of life...that the older she gets her pulling power will decrease...it will be quantity over quality.
And for the first time in her life Julie instead of being the USER will be the one being "USED". She will be a washed up slut...a `has been`...like a top footballer whose dropped down to the Conference.
SAD but that is the way of the world - always has been - always will be.
When I first met Julie she was the `sexy young bit on the side`...having an affair with a older married man called Derek...now she`s fast approaching 46 (dob 12th Feb 67) - and never again will she be that `sexy young bit on the side`...or the `naked stunner in my porn films`...from now on she`ll be the older woman embarrassing herself by sleeping around and having numerous drunken one-night-stands with younger blokes.
But the clock and the truth will catch up with her - I dont want her to be a laughing stock - but she is as they say "fast becoming mutton dressed as lamb".
I`m not having a `pop` just being honest - as is my character - I am DNA programmed to tell the truth at all times.
When I first met Julie - she was Sixteen - something in my head `clicked`...but she was too young - and we did not meet for another 3/4 years.
The second time I found her even more `Stunning`...The immediate lust was instantly followed by LOVE (good writer aint I?)
But the truth is at the time JULIE was hanging out with what can only be described as fat, ugly, common, slags...a right bunch of bow-wows...the worst being sally prevost - who werent just dog-ugly she was also GINGER.
Now to be fair her `mannish mates/she-males` couldnt help being both fat and ugly as it was in their genes...and none of us choose our parents...BUT they were responsible for having filthy foul-mouths and no class - they lot of them made Vicki Pollard seem "classy"...they really were that bad.
I`m not a snob - and even my biggest enemy (hello Julie) would have to admit that like Reg & Ron - I`m old school when it comes to manners and never swear in front of women - I dont think swearing is big - it just means you aint got much of a IQ.
Mike Tyson was the hardest bloke on the planet - a animal in the ring - but outside he was a old-fashioned Gent who never swore in front of women or children.
Men who swear are mostly `thick` - but women who swear like troopers are just common - and I didnt want scum like that in my house.
I would from the start and throughout our 15-year marraige say to Julie "I took you away from all that" and joke "I saved you"
But there was a ring of truth...JULIE was the only good-looking, sexy...and more importantly - ALMOST - the only decent one...as her chavvy friends were Low-life...NOT the sort of scrubbers you`d want your sons to bring home or daughters to hang around.
Only one of her friends was DECENT and respectable - a Sara/Sarah - who worked in a bank...had a longtime boyfriend and unlike the others didnt sleep around.
But JULIE was when I met her hanging out with this motley bunch of scrubbers and under the influence of the Ginger slag prevost.
The full story appears in another Chapter - but before the wedding - my mum said - one of the few things she ever got correct "Watch her (sally) because she`ll do anything to break you up".
This was true - as before I came along - her and Julie were best mates - plus Julie had a car (prevost didnt) and Julie attracted boys in pubs/clubs (prevost certainly didnt)
My mum said "She is jealous and I can tell she wont be happy until Julie and you seperate...she will do everything to break you up"
So like my dad - my mum said many things - and like him - she once got it right...my Dad told me "never talk to a fat bird in the street...in case my mates see you talking to her...I would be so embarrassed"
For once my bastard of a dad was right - and regarding prevost - so was my mum.
The fact is after we married JULIE had hardly any contact with the fat slags from Walthamstow or the ginger dog...but somehow about a year before her affairs with grimson and flemming - Sally Prevost was back on the scene.
Ginger encouraged Julie to `cheat`...gave alibis to Julie...and these included the `scam` of attending the funeral of a Walthamstow fruit and veg man.
Seven times JULIE told Sam, Adam, Me "I`m going to Braintree to see Sally" - but each time she was meeting up with Grimson.
Prevost was in her element - (but `oddly` in August 2005) she spoke to SAM on the phone and ADMITTED she gave Julie alibis!
The phone was on Loud Speaker and Sam, Adam and me heard ginger admit "I`ve only seen her once since Christmas"
In June 2005 she even met Julie and grimson in the Beer Garden of a Braintree Pub - so my mum was for once in her life "spot on".
I think in 2009/2010 - my mum - against my wishes - attended the funeral of prevosts dad - as did Julie - she was in the same room and spoke to my ex-wife and I have NOT spoken to her since that day.
My mum betrayed me - as did my dad - when I found out he`d spoken to my ex-wife I also disowned the bastard.
In a war you can NOT be on both sides. You couldnt be in the IRA and the UDA - just like you cant be a nutruel - there is no such thing - grey does not excist - everything has to be Black or white - that is the way of the world - you are either FOR or AGAINST something.
I am by nature a life-long Liberal - but if a new Political Party was formed with the promise of rounding up all Social Workers and putting them in concentration camps with paedophiles and then sending them to the Gas Chambers then I wouldnt just vote for them I`d join.
I would never harm a animal or a pet - but social workers like all paedophiles deserve to die - they should be experimented on without medication - starved for a month - then either doused in petrol and burned alive or be sent to the Gas Chambers.
I know that sounds a bit too `soft`...and I apologise - but at the end of the day "you cant take the liberal out of my DNA".
I have explained everything to SAM and ADAM...I used the example of Rodney in Only Fools And Horses...when because of stress he couldnt perform in the bedroom department.
But unlike JULIE...his wife Cassandra was not a sex addict...and she waited...they went onto have a baby...whereas in October 2004 Julie jumped into bed with Southend football trainer ian flemming and former pimp richard grimson.
There is a funny side - LOL - cos now everytime we watch the episode of Only Fools And Horses where Rodney is having `trouble` downstairs - I can feel both SAM and ADAM looking at me...they never forget...as proved by the three of us watching the darts on SKY the other night.
Some fat ugly bald bloke from Holland was playing - I think a Michael Van Wergan...or something like that and Adam said "Look there`s her boyfriend"...to which Sam added "Yeah it does look like the fat c**t"
This poor sod werent just a fat ugly bastard - he also had a limp...and looked like a cross berween a disabled Shrek and grimson.
Back to Hughie Gadson.
Again the next time I indulged involved Hughie...this time it was at the Launch Party of ZIT magazine at The Phoenix Apollo - Julie was there - she was suspicious of the two of us `dissapearing` all the time - I think she thought I fancied him - and didnt suspect the use of Charlie.
The third time was at the funeral of a friends dad - I wont say who - as it sounds disrespectful - though it was my grieving mate who gave me the coke.
He had a bar at the back of his house - and about 6 of us were in there snorting Charlie - I was also given a gram to take home with me.
I only used it when Julie went on a caravan holiday with her friend - she spent a week sunbathing and I had a week of snorting.
When she returned on the Saturday morning I think I`d lost a stone and was still `high` - and recall staying up all night filming a party at her parents.
And the only other time I indulged was on a night out with my old mate Vere - at The Circus Tavern - we had a great night partying upstairs at the VIP Lapdancing Club.
I remember Vere was well impressed when I introduced him to Daily Sport Model and top lapdancer Zoe Anderson.
And the Gods Honest truth is that I NEVER touched any other drugs at anytime throughout my 15-year marraige.
I was `gutted` when Hughie wouldnt sign THE STONE ROSES...as he was one of the `coolest blokes` I`ve ever met in my life.
Hughie had the charisma of Celeb gangster Dave Courtney and was a `party animal` second to none.
He was West End meets East End...a Public schoolboy - but NOT posh...Hu had been adopted as a baby...and his real dad must of been a East Ender...as he was a combination of upper class and Cockney charm.
He was educated, intelligent but at the same time very street-wise.
We were for a time like Bowie and Bolan...Rod and Ronnie Wood...Mick and Keef. We shared great times...women...drugs...and threw ourselves into the Rock and Roll lifestyle.
He was the leader with all the contacts and I happily followed...we shared everything...drugs...women...clothes and a mutual obsession with DAVID DOWIE.
Hughie was like the big brother I never had...we were best mates and nothing could come between us...I was `shagging` Rock Photographer Erica Echenberg...so Hughie bedded her...and to prove it took a naked picture of her sleeping.
He was seeing a blonde - a teenage Nanny from Malawi - from memory a Monica/Maureen Zonke - or something like that - so I shagged her behind his back - not literally LOL - and confessed a couple days later - and like me with Erica - he just laughed.
That is how close we were...he introduced me to a older woman called Niki Williams - she had a flat in Kensington - a 14-year-old daughter and a Au Pair - I was so impressed that I became `hooked` on her for a while.
It was a great 18 months/2 years - and everyone we met seemed to love CHARLIE - I had now fallen `out of love` with Speed and had moved onto Coke.
Looking back its a good job Hughie didnt sign The Stone Roses - as I`m sure the drugs would have killed us both.
Hughie had a flat in Paddington - the same block as Boy George and Marilyn. I was living my dream of fast drugs, meeting models and going to parties.
I loved going to Stringfellows, the Hippodrome and places like that...at one time I even blagged the job of Press Officer for The Video Cafe...a nightclub next to The London Palladium.
I was never out of the VIP bar or the gents. (snorting with Hughie - wannabess and celebs and having sex with various stunners - not kidding...one night I had a `encounter` with a Miss World contestant from Italy...NOT the winner - but she looked like Suzanna Hoffs from The Bangles - as I recall it did literally all `end in tears`).
She was proof that DRUGS can `mess with your head` - what was I doing with a black-haired girl?
My love of Cocaine saw me lose 2 stone in weight and friends like Pat Stead, Joanna Burns, Patsy Johnson were worried about me.
Now I said Hughie was `smart` ...when the partying got out of hand...he went off to Turkey for a long holiday - with Dan Higson - another mate and the brother of Comic Charlie Higson.
Danny paid for his holiday by selling a kiss and tell story to the News of The World about his affair with Bucks Fizz singer Jay Aston.
I will tell more about my adventures with Hughie G and Danny Boy in other chapters.
But for now back to Hughie...he was at my Wedding - turned up late...wearing black velvet shoes and matching eyeliner...still looking like a sort of Rock Star.
He`d only been there for about 10 minutes when he looked at me...raised his eyes and touched his nose...it was like the old days as we headed off to the Gents for a snort.
I`d been clean for about 6 months - but couldnt say "no" - but did restrict myself to just 2 lines.
I remember Hughie dancing with JULIE and saying "very nice"...but no way would I have shared her with my `Glimmer Twin`...top bloke and all that - but JULIE was "the love of my life".
The fact is - the honest truth is - I think I only took drugs on 3 other occassions during my marraige - I promised Julie I would give up - just like she promised to be faithful LOL.
The fact is Julie found it harder to give up SEX then I did drugs...In September 2004...I lost my job at the NOTW and had `money worries`...which I never told her about (wish I had now).
JULIE mistook my `suffering` with `bedroom stress` (I kept it private) as I didnt want her to know or worry...but with hindsight `it was a mistake`...as it meant she believed (wrongly) that I had gone off her.
She would at 22 Bridge Road - walk around the bedroom naked - saying "Not bad for a mum of three" and "I`ve still got it".
THE TRUTH is she still did have it - she looked great - but she didnt have any patience - just like she never had a conscience.
As I told both the boys - the best way I could - without being crude - or deliberately disrespectful to their former mum.
I said "She always had a strong need for Sex - it was like an addiction with her - and in September 2004 when I couldnt give her what she wanted...she got it from ian fleming and the pervert richard grimson - and I think - but cant prove peter tibbs junior"
Both boys know that she sacrificed THEM for her own selfish sexual pleasure - as I`ve told Sam and Adam she thought more of `shagging grimson and all the others then she did of you`...SAD BUT TRUE.
But I didnt have to tell them that - they already knew - as ADAM told both SAM and me how he caught Julie and grimson in the lounge of 22 Bridge Road Shotgate Wickford.
It was 3pm on a Saturday afternoon and without going into all the graphic details - which appear in THE PUNK POET if you want to read them - ADAM walked in on his mum `half-naked` and having sex with her perverted boyfriend.
So as well as not having a conscience - Julie is also "guilty" of emotional abuse - as a Nine-year-old child should not see his mum behaving like that...that shocking image...which he reported to Sam and me...will remain with him for the rest of his life.
As will the fact that Julie Johnson allowed her boyfriend to violently threaten and verbally sexually abuse her children.
Julie not only condoned his vile behaviour - she covered it up - she supported grimson 100% (as did her parents).
She refused to protect her children by reporting the former pimp and self-confessed child abuser to the police.
And for-the-record...just as Julie ADMITTED at Southend County Court in March 2006 to starring in PORNOGRAPHIC movies...at the Divorce Hearing she CONFIRMED her affair with former pimp Richard Grimson of 40 Hyde Way Wickford Essex.
The fact is because of her `selfish behaviour` Sam and Adam lost out on proper Birthdays, Xmas celebrations and family gatherings because JULIE was a `sex addict`...harsh but true - she believed it was more important to have sex with other men then to be loyal to her family.
Proof of both her sexual appetite and self-obsessed behaviour - is that less then 6 weeks after my `problem/illness` ...rather then wait for me to get `better`...she was jumping into bed with both grimson and fleming.
Julie Johnson - aka Julie Taylor Johnson...between October 2004 and June 2005 became a serial adulterer - as I remind both boys - and they agree - if it wasnt for her selfish behaviour and craving for sex - at special family times like Christmas - the house would of been full of their mates and girlfriends...with JULIE hosting and all of us having a laugh.
We would still be a PROPER family...if it wasnt for Julie falling `under the evil spell` of grimson and prevost.
The truth is because Julie put the advice of dog ugly ginger slag sally prevost before her family - and her lust for ian flemming and richard grimson before her children...she has since 2005 missed out on both boys birthday parties...Xmas celebrations and meeting their girlfriends.
Now when their mates or girls stay over - it`s me who makes them breakfast - and it should of been Julie... but none of the above will ever concern her - because the truth is JULIE JOHNSON has no conscience.
Julie Johnson revels in the fact that men `fall at her feet` - she loves the attention...but doesnt realise how men think - they will say `anything` to sweet-talk her into bed - just like grimson, flemming, tibbs and the fat boy bullshitter.
Since 2005 Sam has seen her with eight or nine...including the fat bald ugly Gary...the `Face` from Canning Town...LOL...as he described himself to a gang of teenagers outside Wickford Tesco - adding "I`m best mates with Dave Courtney"...well...that`s not what they say in Stanford-Le-Hope/Fobbing...or Canning Town where the `proper people` have NEVER heard of the self-styled East End hardman.
But men - and remember I am one - will say ANYTHING to get a woman into bed - both grimson and flemming told Julie they would leave there wives for her...but fleming went back to his wife claiming she was suffering with a serious illness.
True pervert grimson did leave common-law wife Emma - (if you saw her you`d know why - as we are talking downmarket Waynetta Slob) but after a few months he moved out of the `love nest` they shared at 10 Carswell Gardens, The Wick, Wickford and moved back in with the `plain jane and mentally challenged` emma at 40 Hyde Way Wickford.
All grimson got from his affair with Julie - apart from the sex...was a present from his common-law wife who revealed he wasnt the father of their eldest child - HA HA...a visit from South London gangsters - where he cried, squeeled like a pig - and called the police LOL.
What did Julie get?
Well Grimson gave her a STD for Christmas...made her pregnant...but she didnt keep it...so sadly there was to be no `happy ending` for the former porn star and the child abusing pimp.
But I was NOT "entirely blameless"...
I was "guilty" of losing my job and briefly my interest in Julie - physically/sexually...(I still kissed and cuddled her all the time...said nice things) - because I NEVER stopped loving her - but with Julie it had to be sex and plenty of it - to prove you still fancied her.
I am still haunted by what occured in Sept/Oct 2004 (I should of tried Viagra LOL) because I have a conscience - so I suffer for my actions - and punish myself on a daily basis.
But JULIE JOHNSON has never had a conscience - so none of the above affects her - with me it was my children first, second and third.
Whereas with Julie - it was always JULIE, Julie, Julie - and where can I get a man to satisfy my needs - I am not knocking her for that - because as with drinking, gambling, drugs - SEX can be an addiction...or the constant need for it a iillness.
The fact is I was also "guilty" of refusing to have the `snip`...Julie was always on at me to have it done...she hated the pill as it made her put on weight.
I remember throughout 2003 and 2004 that she would go `on and on` about it...once even contacting the `snip Clinic` in Billericay...but I never got further then the Car Park...as I`ve always hated hospitals and anything to do with operations.
Julie was - and for all I know still is a `Sex Addict` - but I do `worry` - I genuinely do worry about her - what is she going to do when her looks fade?
She still is a sort of `stunner` - but one day she will wake up and look her age...it happens to us all...we aint all Kate Moss.
Without being rude I did see her in October - and she isnt what she was - but who is - LOL ? Julie is still `attractive` and not many men would kick her out of bed...not many do.
But she looked more Lisa Maxwell from `Loose Women` than Patsy Kensit...Julie has gone from being `girlfriend/partner material` to `one-night-stand`...though I`d still love a `quickie` or a long weekend away with her LOL.
So I do `worry` about her (15 years was a long time) - as I know how men think - as I stated in The Punk Poet - One Sunday lunchtime I was in The Bowers and Pitsea Social Club where three blokes were talking about her...and what I heard wasnt very nice or flattering.
I didnt know if they were doing it to wind me up - to get a reaction - or even if they knew me - but one of them was boasting how he`d had `Julie` ...described as the `blonde from work`...and lets just say the remarks would not of impressed her.
I looked at him and thought - "scumbag"...your thinning on top and you play Darts...a few years back Julie wouldnt of looked twice at a scruffy ugly bastard like him...but its a fact of life...that the older she gets her pulling power will decrease...it will be quantity over quality.
And for the first time in her life Julie instead of being the USER will be the one being "USED". She will be a washed up slut...a `has been`...like a top footballer whose dropped down to the Conference.
SAD but that is the way of the world - always has been - always will be.
When I first met Julie she was the `sexy young bit on the side`...having an affair with a older married man called Derek...now she`s fast approaching 46 (dob 12th Feb 67) - and never again will she be that `sexy young bit on the side`...or the `naked stunner in my porn films`...from now on she`ll be the older woman embarrassing herself by sleeping around and having numerous drunken one-night-stands with younger blokes.
But the clock and the truth will catch up with her - I dont want her to be a laughing stock - but she is as they say "fast becoming mutton dressed as lamb".
I`m not having a `pop` just being honest - as is my character - I am DNA programmed to tell the truth at all times.
When I first met Julie - she was Sixteen - something in my head `clicked`...but she was too young - and we did not meet for another 3/4 years.
The second time I found her even more `Stunning`...The immediate lust was instantly followed by LOVE (good writer aint I?)
But the truth is at the time JULIE was hanging out with what can only be described as fat, ugly, common, slags...a right bunch of bow-wows...the worst being sally prevost - who werent just dog-ugly she was also GINGER.
Now to be fair her `mannish mates/she-males` couldnt help being both fat and ugly as it was in their genes...and none of us choose our parents...BUT they were responsible for having filthy foul-mouths and no class - they lot of them made Vicki Pollard seem "classy"...they really were that bad.
I`m not a snob - and even my biggest enemy (hello Julie) would have to admit that like Reg & Ron - I`m old school when it comes to manners and never swear in front of women - I dont think swearing is big - it just means you aint got much of a IQ.
Mike Tyson was the hardest bloke on the planet - a animal in the ring - but outside he was a old-fashioned Gent who never swore in front of women or children.
Men who swear are mostly `thick` - but women who swear like troopers are just common - and I didnt want scum like that in my house.
I would from the start and throughout our 15-year marraige say to Julie "I took you away from all that" and joke "I saved you"
But there was a ring of truth...JULIE was the only good-looking, sexy...and more importantly - ALMOST - the only decent one...as her chavvy friends were Low-life...NOT the sort of scrubbers you`d want your sons to bring home or daughters to hang around.
Only one of her friends was DECENT and respectable - a Sara/Sarah - who worked in a bank...had a longtime boyfriend and unlike the others didnt sleep around.
But JULIE was when I met her hanging out with this motley bunch of scrubbers and under the influence of the Ginger slag prevost.
The full story appears in another Chapter - but before the wedding - my mum said - one of the few things she ever got correct "Watch her (sally) because she`ll do anything to break you up".
This was true - as before I came along - her and Julie were best mates - plus Julie had a car (prevost didnt) and Julie attracted boys in pubs/clubs (prevost certainly didnt)
My mum said "She is jealous and I can tell she wont be happy until Julie and you seperate...she will do everything to break you up"
So like my dad - my mum said many things - and like him - she once got it right...my Dad told me "never talk to a fat bird in the street...in case my mates see you talking to her...I would be so embarrassed"
For once my bastard of a dad was right - and regarding prevost - so was my mum.
The fact is after we married JULIE had hardly any contact with the fat slags from Walthamstow or the ginger dog...but somehow about a year before her affairs with grimson and flemming - Sally Prevost was back on the scene.
Ginger encouraged Julie to `cheat`...gave alibis to Julie...and these included the `scam` of attending the funeral of a Walthamstow fruit and veg man.
Seven times JULIE told Sam, Adam, Me "I`m going to Braintree to see Sally" - but each time she was meeting up with Grimson.
Prevost was in her element - (but `oddly` in August 2005) she spoke to SAM on the phone and ADMITTED she gave Julie alibis!
The phone was on Loud Speaker and Sam, Adam and me heard ginger admit "I`ve only seen her once since Christmas"
In June 2005 she even met Julie and grimson in the Beer Garden of a Braintree Pub - so my mum was for once in her life "spot on".
I think in 2009/2010 - my mum - against my wishes - attended the funeral of prevosts dad - as did Julie - she was in the same room and spoke to my ex-wife and I have NOT spoken to her since that day.
My mum betrayed me - as did my dad - when I found out he`d spoken to my ex-wife I also disowned the bastard.
In a war you can NOT be on both sides. You couldnt be in the IRA and the UDA - just like you cant be a nutruel - there is no such thing - grey does not excist - everything has to be Black or white - that is the way of the world - you are either FOR or AGAINST something.
I am by nature a life-long Liberal - but if a new Political Party was formed with the promise of rounding up all Social Workers and putting them in concentration camps with paedophiles and then sending them to the Gas Chambers then I wouldnt just vote for them I`d join.
I would never harm a animal or a pet - but social workers like all paedophiles deserve to die - they should be experimented on without medication - starved for a month - then either doused in petrol and burned alive or be sent to the Gas Chambers.
I know that sounds a bit too `soft`...and I apologise - but at the end of the day "you cant take the liberal out of my DNA".
I have explained everything to SAM and ADAM...I used the example of Rodney in Only Fools And Horses...when because of stress he couldnt perform in the bedroom department.
But unlike JULIE...his wife Cassandra was not a sex addict...and she waited...they went onto have a baby...whereas in October 2004 Julie jumped into bed with Southend football trainer ian flemming and former pimp richard grimson.
There is a funny side - LOL - cos now everytime we watch the episode of Only Fools And Horses where Rodney is having `trouble` downstairs - I can feel both SAM and ADAM looking at me...they never forget...as proved by the three of us watching the darts on SKY the other night.
Some fat ugly bald bloke from Holland was playing - I think a Michael Van Wergan...or something like that and Adam said "Look there`s her boyfriend"...to which Sam added "Yeah it does look like the fat c**t"
This poor sod werent just a fat ugly bastard - he also had a limp...and looked like a cross berween a disabled Shrek and grimson.
Back to Hughie Gadson.
Again the next time I indulged involved Hughie...this time it was at the Launch Party of ZIT magazine at The Phoenix Apollo - Julie was there - she was suspicious of the two of us `dissapearing` all the time - I think she thought I fancied him - and didnt suspect the use of Charlie.
The third time was at the funeral of a friends dad - I wont say who - as it sounds disrespectful - though it was my grieving mate who gave me the coke.
He had a bar at the back of his house - and about 6 of us were in there snorting Charlie - I was also given a gram to take home with me.
I only used it when Julie went on a caravan holiday with her friend - she spent a week sunbathing and I had a week of snorting.
When she returned on the Saturday morning I think I`d lost a stone and was still `high` - and recall staying up all night filming a party at her parents.
And the only other time I indulged was on a night out with my old mate Vere - at The Circus Tavern - we had a great night partying upstairs at the VIP Lapdancing Club.
I remember Vere was well impressed when I introduced him to Daily Sport Model and top lapdancer Zoe Anderson.
And the Gods Honest truth is that I NEVER touched any other drugs at anytime throughout my 15-year marraige.
